Year Number 44

It took me 44 years to remember my worth; 16,060 days of Hell on Earth as a woman surviving in a mans world. I was taught/socially conditioned against my innate state of exisitence as a Goddess, learning embodiment into physical human form, through the narrow minded, onesided, misogynistic beliefs hiding behind the name of Christianity and Jesus Christ. This year I learned that life is worth living when my soul/spirit is FREE to live by my own standards of open hearted acceptance of self beyond confines of judgment & condemnation laid against me. Personal Sovereignty acheived through self devotion packs a significantly larger punch than weak minded codependant beliefs being sold in the JADED TAX FREE HOUSES OF GOD. My consciousness expanded allowing me to witness self induced suffering, as a repetitive catalyst for change, necessary to evolve my soul beyond the walls of the American Patriarchal Dream. Pain has been a constant in life and this year I learned how to respect it for what it is.....change embodied. By facing fear & chasing pain into the bountiful darkness of the unknown my soul returns to the feminine I was taught not to be. 

When a psyche experiences constant suffering/negative thought patterns over extended periods of time it learns to adapt to its enviroment thus explaining the very existence of Divine Spiritual Beings living the life long process of self discovery. We are the opposition to our supressors through the natural process of human evolution that can not be labeled as wrong for mearly being different. The Hell and Back Journey is what we came here to embody in order to evolve Humanity beyond the righteous confines organized religion has bestowed upon believers of Christ. Each and every soul has purpose and passion exisiting within that is acheived through higher levels of emotional intelligence embodied through a Spritual Awakening Healing Journey. Every hardship in life signifies potential depth to ones soul as long as critical thinking has not been conditioned into a place of dumbfounded emotional ignorance being taught in the name of Organized Religion Worldwide.

Depth to my heart is what I discovered in my 44th year of life. An endless resilience restored through learning how to be more authentic to myself in order to operate Free from the men claiming ownership over basic human rights guaranteed in life. This year I allowed my sacred rage to fuel my actions as a catalyst to encite change. I voiced my disdain and frustration openly and was judged and ostracized through the small minded confines of Social Media and the systems claiming care for Humanity while actively working against them simultaneously. By allowing this resonance of onesidedness to settle into personal realization exposing truth at its core; we've all been conditioned into our lower states of emotional intelligence in order to overcome anything that stands in our way in the pursuit of eternal sunshine. A life without depression and anxiety is a life worth living; having the will to breathe, desire to brush your teeth, motivation to shower, get out of bed AND Enjoy Life instead of dreading life as we know it is the Universal Truth Humanity is headed towards. Emotional intelligence is utilizing critical thinking beyond ones ability to place blame on the things we simply do not understand to their entirety and now is when the Corporations playing God will learn what it takes to be in Service to the Greater Good in Order to Maintain the Degree of Success They Have Grown Accustomed to. Accountability provided by the Divine Feminine Frequency of Collective Consciousness is humanities return to Oneness and that would not be possible without the 44th year of my life. Bless this mess, my huge heart free of shame, fear and guilt that is learning what it means to be a glutton for punishment as long as it is defining my character. 

XoXoXo~ LovelyByChoice